Lithromantic

what did I see in you before
and what prevents me from seeing that now
who should I fall for
if I can fall at all
why should I feel uncomfortable
nervous
with eye contact nearly impossible
why can't I stand to have someone see the universe
in my eyes
why can't I stand to see how they adore me
written on their face
say the forbidden words
that I might have value
where is the fear
where does it come from
why is it here